Big Steaming Pile of Stress

So, my life is in a bit of a tailspin right now.  I have a ton going on at work, and we (read I) are having money issues right now, and on top of that, there are the holidays to contend with.

I am proud of myself in that I have baked a ton of goodies for Christmas this year and have tasted none.  Of course the dumping thing helps with that.  I can’t seem to stay out of the Chex Mix that I made, so I’ll be bringing that in to work tomorrow, and that is part of the stress eating that I am trying so hard to deal with.  I’ve been employing a lot of techniques from 50 Ways to Soothe Yourself Without Food and I’m learning, but it is a slow process.

I have dropped from 193 down to 191.  It’s been a slow, agonizing process, but I do believe that mixing up the exercise routines and getting involved in consciously looking at my eating is helping.

I’m also in a funk now because a good friend’s wife lost her battle with cancer on Sunday night.  I’m so sad for Drew and their son, but worse than that, it is bringing up some memories of when my sister died, and I don’t know how to deal with that yet (without placating myself with food).

But, I will pull myself together.  This is a true test of how I’m learning to deal with raw emotions without stuffing my face.

One day at a time.  One hour at a time.  One moment at a time.

I will overcome.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Christie
    Dec 07, 2010 @ 17:34:51

    Just expressing this and putting it out there is a fantastic step at helping yourself to deal with it without food. A lot of times we use food to placate us in order to avoid really feeling or facing things…. so I applaud you on that! Just keep at it. I KNOW you can get through this sweetie.

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  2. goldeygrad97
    Dec 07, 2010 @ 17:39:28

    Hey – just an FYI – I AM reading your blog – I can’t comment from work and I can’t access the blog from home – how’s that for a situation? You’re doing great!

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