UGH…I Repeat…UGH UGH UGH

So, now that I can put a little weight on my knee, I decided to get on the scale this morning.

Duhn duhn dhun…

Up 7 pounds.

Holy shit.

Time to get back to basics.  This morning, I had a protien shake and a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast.  I need my oatmeal to keep things moving.  So, I had oatmeal, mixed with some frozen blueberries and about a tsp of chopped walnuts for some good fat.  Lunch will be tuna salad, and dinner is some fresh croaker that our friends gave us when we were on vacation this past week.

I know, I know.  7 pounds over 8 weeks should not freak me out quite so much, but it does.  I can’t exercise right now.  Can’t.  My knee won’t hold me as it is simply not strong enough to do a decent cardio work out.  Hell, I can’t even walk right now.  And I know I’ve been shoveling food in my face left and right.  CARBS.  CARBS ARE MADE OF EVIL.  So, it’s back to good proteins, lots of fruit and veggies, and upping the water intake.  No carbies.  NO NO NO.

Must. Lose. Seven Pounds.  Quickly.

Sigh.

I hate surgery.  And I hate my eating disorder.  For real.

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Commencing Operation Goal Weight

Alright Body.  I know you are loving hanging on to this weight.  I also know that as I get closer to my GW (175 per the surgeon) that you are stubborn and don’t wanna let go.  I also know that it is partly Mouth and Brain’s fault because they let things slip through they shouldn’t.

So, as of yesterday, we have launched Operation Goal Weight.  Time to kick it.  I know we have to be careful with the exercise right now (hello stupid knees – looking at a 2nd knee surgery in the near future) but we sure as hell can control what goes into the pouch. 

So, it’s back to weighing and measuring.  It’s back to watching our fat grams (ahem, instead of just watching them go into the mouth).  It’s time to up the water, condense the protein, and get our ass in gear to get to that finish line.  I’m not looking for a sprint here, but I sure am looking for some forward movement.  Time to break this stall.  Time to break through.  Time to move our ass and shrink.

We’re 18 months out now.  Holy crap on a cracker when did that happen?  18 months.  And we’re bouncing around 187 to 190 like it’s our freaking job.  It’s time for a new job body.  So let’s put it in motion.  Let’s do what we know we’re supposed to do.  Limit those carbs!  Up that protein!  Get rid of that extra fat servings!  Stop that snacking!!!

We have vacation coming up Body.  And I fully expect that you don’t fall down on the job.  Yes, we’ll be unable to control about 50% of the food environment, but of the 50% we can control, let’s make sure we do it up good.  No greasey potatos at Aunt Fabby’s!  No sour cream and guac with that wonderful mexican food!  No fried chicken!  No tamales (did I just say that?).  No! NO! NO! 

Let’s do it.  We have until November 11th.  That’s right – November 11th.  Let’s shake it like a polaroid picture!!!

I’m Doing It Again!

Please sponsor me for the 2011 March of Dimes Walk for Babies! This year, because of the issues I’m having with my knee, I’m only doing the 2.5 mile walk as opposed to the 6.4 mile walk, but I still need sponsors!

Thanks!!

Almost Overweight – and I Mean That in a Good Way

I’m 12 pounds from my doctor’s goal weight for me, which is 175.  12 pounds.  I’ve never been 12 pounds from a goal weight in my life.  My BMI is down to 32.1.  In 12 pounds, I’ll actually be “overweight” instead of “obese.”  This makes me so happy.

The weight is creeping off so slowly now.  I’m way past my honeymoon phase, and I really have to watch every single thing I put in my mouth, but my pouch is still working as it always has – no sugars can pass (dump city), I don’t handle fat or excess carbs well (oh the gas) and I’m really limited to about a cup to a cup and a half of food at each meal.

Lately I’ve really cut down on the snacking.  I’ve gotten much better at grabbing for something like fruit when I am having a snack attack.  I’ve increased my fluids back to the proper level, and have cut the caffeine out because it was becoming an addiction.  Thanks to my surgery, I can recognize that now.  I still love my coffee, but I have at least cut it back to exclusively decaf except for the weekends (a treat, and I have to finish up my k-cups).

I’ve lost 134 pounds from my highest weight – when I weighed in at Dr. McKenna’s office in April of 2009, I was 321 pounds.  Today I’m 187.

I’m down 117 pounds from my surgery weight of 304 in November of 2009.

I’m wearing size large shirts and 14 or 16 slacks depending on who makes them.

Life is good.  I’m living it.  I’m not dreaming about it anymore.

The Good, The Bad and the Ugly

So – the good – I’m still losing (yay!).  And my doctors are thrilled at that.  As am I.  My pouch has remembered what restriction is.  I’m upping my protein and lowering my carbs.  And I thank God every day that I can’t tolerate sugar.  I was watching a news blurb the other day (I think on CBS, but don’t hold me to it) that said that Gastric Bypass (as compared to the lapbad and the sleeve) is still the gold standard for weight loss surgery.  I don’t know if I agree with that article (they were comparing the amount of excess weight loss and the instances where diabetes was made better as a result of the surgery), but it was the right decision for me and my sugar and crap food addiction.  I’ve now lost 75% of my excess weight (going by a goal weight of 150), my diabetes is in remission, my heart disease has reversed itself, my sleep apnea is gone, and I feel so much better.

The bad – the excess skin is start to cause issues.  My eczema has flaired where there are larger amounts of extra skin on my back and under my breasts.  Not much the doc can do for it except tell me to take quick showers with lukewarm water and moisturize.   At least it wasn’t skin infections (although I am starting to get sores on my rear where my extra skin hangs down over the tops of my thighs – how pretty).

The ugly – the right knee is buggered.  I have to call today to set up an x-ray.  It’s grindy and poppy and sore to the touch – the same as the left knee was before my last surgery.  And it’s not attributed to excess weight but instead it’s a result of degenerative joint disease which runs in my family.  Oh well.  I don’t want more surgery.  EVER.  But oh well.

So, that’s what’s going on.

Boot Camp Officially Completed!

I finished the bootcamp challenge, and…drumroll please…I popped on the scale this morning and low and behold – 189!!!  I’m out of the 190s!!!  Now I just have to stay out of them!!!!

I know I’ve really toned up during this challenge, and have really reinforced my exercise habits, which I really needed.  For now, I have decided that my goal is not going to be focused on losing the remaining weight, but rather keeping up my good habits and really rocking this healthy body I’ve given myself!

Just a quick facial comparison – this is me last February…

and this was just a couple of days ago…

Week One Done Baby!

I’ve completed week one of the Spark People 28 Day Boot Camp!  I’m sore but it’s worth it because I know I’ve toned up this week.

I’ve gotten two new DVDs for workouts – both by Leslie Sansone.  One is her Walk Away the Pounds DVD – it has four different workouts on it – 1, 2, 3 and 4 miles.  I figure on the days I concentrate mostly on cardio I’ll do the 3 or 4 mile, and the days I do mostly strength training, I’ll add the 1 or 2 mile.  I also got her pilates DVD (You Can Do!  Pilates).  I’ll try that tomorrow.  I will mix it up with my other workouts – the Zumba (I still suck at Zumba!), yoga, and my biggest loser workouts.  I don’t want to get in a rutt with the exercise because according to my exercise counselor, your body gets used to the routines.

My husband still hasn’t been cleared to exercise yet, but once he gets clearance from the cardio, I’ll get him started on the 1 or 2 mile walks until we can get back outside.

I’ve also used the shake weight – let me tell you, the little six minute DVD workout that came with it you can REALLY feel it.  I’m excited about making progress with my upper arms.   I’m hoping to tone that skin up.  I saw a show where a girl had the armplasty surgery, and OMG that was a lot of staples.  I’m such a chicken!

Keep up the good work my fellow weightlosers!!!  I’ve done really good with tracking my food this week, lower the fat content and trying to keep snacking to a minimum.  I have a big old pot of beef barley soup on the stove today and its full of veggies and good carbs!

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